I'm posting on the second so you'll know that this isn't a joke...

The company Wolf and I work for is in make-or-break mode; we have 90 days to turn the tide or say farewell. A 20% cut in our already heavily discounted pay goes into effect immediately.

What to do with this news?

The multi-year investment into therapy appears to be paying off in that I'm managing my emotions pretty well. It's nice to not feel completely swept away by the overwhelming tide, though the undercurrent does its best to seduce despite my enhanced swimming skills.

The most unexpected challenge is trying to explain my faith. Everyone with whom I've shared the news has expressed grief and horror and fear. Now, of course I have some of those feelings myself, but I also feel like we'll be fine. Call it denial, call me naive, do what you need to do, but I feel certain that we'll be fine. We won't die and where there's life hope truly does abide. Can it be that I've finally integrated the concept that not seeing a solution on the horizon isn't the same as there not being one? That would be cool.

Agility seems like an important word right now. My mind, perspective, emotional weather patterns, and responses benefit from agility and optimism. I affirm that my highest good is in place and that today all of my needs are met. I do my best to help my current company succeed, I explore options to absorb the temporary financial hit, I keep my eyes open for additional money-making avenues. I trust and know that my trust is well-founded, if not easily explained. The evidence is my life, to date; each year finds me happier and in better circumstances than the one that precedes it. And so it is.

In other good news, Robin came through her tummy tuck + hysterectomy brilliantly. They got all of the cancer, and she got a flat tummy. Talk about a win/win!

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